Well I guess with a HCG of 119 the IVF nurse called me and I am switching to suppositories. Whoo Hoo for no more needles. I just can't take anymore shots in my buttocks. So has anybody noticed anything new about my blog??
So I have been reading Dear John and I just got to the point of him leaving to go back overseas when i was waiting at quest today and I totally had to shut the book. I am a TOTAL crier. and I am not a small tears running down my cheeks crier but sobs and sobs kind of crier. LOL
I had one of these yesterday morning. My parents are my mom and step-dad. It was my step-dad that was here for 4 weeks to stay with our dog, he is that wonderful of a father. But with their love comes extra family. Things 5 years ago became rocky between us all and it has been a slow climb back to becoming family.
I have 2 Step-sister and 1 Step-brother and they have big families. Well my SB and his wife had a baby girl in sept they have 2 other girls. Well on Sunday she was baptized now for some reason not being invited affected me 100x worse then ever before. I guess maybe because Christmas went well and we all got along I thought things were turning a new leaf. So to not get an invitation or a call I just felt like an outsider of their side of the family again. I know we could not be there but I would have liked to be able to send a card or a gift. So I called my mom Sunday morning and asked why she thought we weren't invited she said they weren't called till a few days before and were told they didn't have to come to the church if they didn't want to.... I mean they are the grandparents. Now my mom is not big on going to church after going threw a very judging time but she isn't against it.
I just feel very frustrated by it. It feels like they don't have to care if we want to be involved or not. I know it is hard being 1600 miles from them all but I am still there Facebook friend and they have my phone number. It just really hurt to not be invited.
Now I am just waiting for my beta #2 test results! XOXO