Sunday, February 28, 2010

A wonderful Award

Thank you so much to Ann over at Our Emotional Journey for this fantastic award. Be sure to check out her blog she just had 2 embryos transfered and is in the middle of her 2ww and really loving her PIO shots J/K LOL

I have to list 10 Things That Make My Day and then list 10 Blogs worthy of this award as well, and then you'll have the award and they'll have the award too. Don't forget you'll have to do the same... list 10 Things and 10 Blogs to earn the award (then of course copy the pic of the award to your computer and paste/upload the award pic to your own blog post saying that you received this award with your 10 and 10).


Things that make my day!


  1. Cheesey 80's music (espically when I am singing along in my car)

  2. Diet Dr Pepper ( I am slowly giving it up)

  3. Clothes that I think should be too small that fit.

  4. Finding amazing coupons and getting things for free.

  5. Getting flowers ramdomly from Tim.

  6. Bubble Baths

  7. Cuddles from my favorite Jacob.

  8. Finding money in the dryer.

  9. My husbands kisses

  10. Sore boobs
    I know I don't have my 10 people and I promise I will by then end of the week I am just feeling so emotional right now.... I started this on Sunday night if that tells you much about my week so far. Thank you for so much support! XOXO

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Mr and Mrs Smith

This is my strong, tall, sexy husband! I love you Mr. Smith!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Yawn....

I am just so tired... This being a human incubator stuff can wear a person out. I started watching a 4yr old boy last week Monday and things were going fine but yesterday he showed his bad tantrum throwing screaming side. Wow did my stress level go threw the roof. I am not sure what to do . Tim agrees that if i feel like he is going to stress me out or if his tantrums could hurt me that the money is not worth it. Plus as I mentioned I am so tired. He leaves next week so I am slowly becoming more and more an emotional mess!
We went and saw Valentines Day last night. It was a sweet movie. A little long but sweet. I cried, I won't tell you what happened and is wasn't sad it was extremely sweet but I CRIED! I don't want him to leave and I try not to say those words out loud as I have no control over him leaving or not so at least for a few more days I will try to be the strong military wife. XOXO

Monday, February 22, 2010

3 posts... 3 days since last beta



Well I guess it is a 3 kind of day. 3 posts, 3 days past last BETA which today's number was a 368... I am officially 4w3d...

Sorry to not have much to say just soaking it all in!
I would love to know some of your beta levels. XOXO

Wow and Welcome

Well I just noticed my Feedjit had all these new places people were arriving from so I figured I would check it out. You all were coming from The Stirrup Queen's other blog called Lost and Found and Connections Abound and she mentioned my positive Beta!
So welcome all to my blog.
I am Sarah and I am finally Pregnant! XOXO

No more needles!

Well I guess with a HCG of 119 the IVF nurse called me and I am switching to suppositories. Whoo Hoo for no more needles. I just can't take anymore shots in my buttocks.
So has anybody noticed anything new about my blog??
So I have been reading Dear John and I just got to the point of him leaving to go back overseas when i was waiting at quest today and I totally had to shut the book. I am a TOTAL crier. and I am not a small tears running down my cheeks crier but sobs and sobs kind of crier. LOL
I had one of these yesterday morning. My parents are my mom and step-dad. It was my step-dad that was here for 4 weeks to stay with our dog, he is that wonderful of a father. But with their love comes extra family. Things 5 years ago became rocky between us all and it has been a slow climb back to becoming family.
I have 2 Step-sister and 1 Step-brother and they have big families. Well my SB and his wife had a baby girl in sept they have 2 other girls. Well on Sunday she was baptized now for some reason not being invited affected me 100x worse then ever before. I guess maybe because Christmas went well and we all got along I thought things were turning a new leaf. So to not get an invitation or a call I just felt like an outsider of their side of the family again. I know we could not be there but I would have liked to be able to send a card or a gift. So I called my mom Sunday morning and asked why she thought we weren't invited she said they weren't called till a few days before and were told they didn't have to come to the church if they didn't want to.... I mean they are the grandparents. Now my mom is not big on going to church after going threw a very judging time but she isn't against it.
I just feel very frustrated by it. It feels like they don't have to care if we want to be involved or not. I know it is hard being 1600 miles from them all but I am still there Facebook friend and they have my phone number. It just really hurt to not be invited.
Now I am just waiting for my beta #2 test results! XOXO

Friday, February 19, 2010

HCG


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I don't have words to describe my amazing happiness.... All I want to know is there one or two or more... LOL XOXO






Thursday, February 18, 2010

OMG it is almost tomorrow!

I am so so so so so so excited and nervous for tomorrow. That mystery number will arrive. I don't have much to say but we are pretty sure DH wont be here for the 7 week U/S. We are both really excited for tomorrow so I am just living in the moment for now!
I will let you all know as soon as I can about my beta! XOXO

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Hello Friday are you here yet?

Well today has been a long day just feeling extra tired. I POAS it was the digital one and it told me Pregnant ... Not that I didn't believe the others I had peed on before it is just extra to see the word! Just yesterday it said not pregnant. Well I am anxious for Friday to arrive.

Today my body just hurts. I was reading Christa's blog today and I noticed on one of her comments a link to another blog that talked about all those symptoms or non-symptoms we are feeling right now. I know every time I go to the bathroom it is like a, this might not be working, as I am still spotting brown.

So hopeful for good numbers for Jennifer tomorrow! Say an extra prayer for her!

Goodnight and Sweet Dreams!! XOXO

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I'm a total worry wort.... UPDATED!


So I got up on Sunday morning and POAS and it was the faintest line ever. Actually it didn't show up till about 30 min after I peed on it. So I wasn't extremely confidant about the test. So DH and I were sitting for our friends that afternoon and she had bought me a test! So I went to the bathroon and after 5 mins
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The reason I have been so hesitant to post this is because my beta isn't till Friday, my lines are not super dark, and I have had brownish spotting since Sunday afternoon. Everybody I have talked about this said as long as there is no cramps and no red I am fine. It is so hard to not feel like the rug is going to be pulled out. To be so happy and to w
orry about having that taken away. It is just hard. I am so excited for us. And my husband can't believe it either.

Update: That test would have been 6dp3dt I took an EPT today to see if I show on another brand todays is 8dp3dt I was at my friend Amanda's house so she peed on the other one!



PLEASE IF YOU ARE MY FACEBOOK FRIEND OR KNOW MY FAMILY WE ARE NOT WANTING TO SPREAD THE NEWS TILL WE HAVE SEEN A HEARTBEAT! THANK YOU! XOXO

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentines day!

So DH surprised me with a dozen red roses sitting in my car for me as I was shopping at the commissary. (OMG could there have been any more babies there today. It was like every one had one in a carrier in their carts)
He was working on base so I didn't expect this extra sweetness.
He also come home and gave me a box of Godiva chocolates. They are my favorite! I haven't had them in a long time.
I am not sure what we will be doing today we are not exciting V-day people the last few years we have gone out on the 13th since it is less busy. So we will probably go out tomorrow! :)
So you all enjoy your Sunday and Valentines and give the ones you love LOTS AND LOTS of KISSES! OXOXOXO

Friday, February 12, 2010

My newest friend Jennifer!

Well I told you a little about my friend Jennifer that I met at Walter Reed well she decided to start blogging after she read mine and a few of yours so please head over to her blog and welcome her to the blogging world that I have come to know and love.. You all are wonderful!

http://www.hopesdreamsandinfertility.blogspot.com/

So glad to be home!

I have never been so glad to see grass... yes it is kind of Florida cold here but it is great!

So I POAS today.... I know it is way early but I just have the most horrible boob pain.

So to all my IF-er's out there this is 7dpo4dpt for me. What is the earliest you have POAS and the earliest you have gotten a positive????

Happy Friday!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Snowed in.....

So after 8 inches the first weekend, 4 inches a week ago, 30 inches on Fri- sat, and here we are on Tuesday night waiting to get 12-24 inches again!
I am so SICK of the snow. I just want to go home... Even had a SMALL emotional break down about getting in the car and driving home (all 17 hours).
We had tickets booked to leave today at 5pm but I guess SW had other plans for us. So we hope to leave on Thursday.
Right now I am just the incubator as I have been getting called I can't say I am not enjoying the extra treatments! I will never be able to say this was an uneventful 2ww.
Stay safe and warm all my co-snow bunnies!

Monday, February 8, 2010

My Embies!

I am proud to introduce Em and Bree....
These lucky 2 were implanted at 9am.
They said we make beautiful embryos and we hope
they or one of them stuck!
I feel good and now we wait till the 19th for our beta!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Ready

I am so ready to be back home. To be in my bed again to see my fluffy puppies and not as much white stuff... It is a race to get out of here before we could get 10 more inches of snow Tuesday night! I can't believe I will be "pregnant" tomorrow! I am beyond excited. I know I should calm my hopes incase it doesn't work but this will be the closest I have ever been to being knocked up!
For all my Non IF-ers please dont be afraid to ask me about anything if I confuse you with my posts!

Tomorrow will come quickly and I probally wont sleep well but wish us luck!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

100...14...9...6...28

Well I have been waiting till I had some for sure numbers to give you till I posted.




  1. 100.... This is my 100th post Woo Hoo It would have to be the one with some interesting news!


  2. 14... That is how many eggs they harvested on Friday morning. I ended up with ALOT of pain but I asked for Anti-nausea before the surgery so the anesthesiologist gave it to me in my IV before I got anesthesia. I got some Demoral in recovery and ended up going home at noon when the surgery started at 9am. Not to bad.


  3. 9... That is the number of mature eggs out of the 14.


  4. 6... That is the number of embies growing. I wasn't sure if I would even get a phone call because of the snow but they did call and so now we hope and pray for them to keep growing. Please also pray for my new friend Jen and Chris as they have 2 embies out of 15 eggs harvested still growing. Tomorrow is their day 3 and they are putting it in God's hands to keep their little embryos growing. They are an awsome Army couple and they will make wonderful parents!


  5. 28... INCHES OF SNOW!!!! OMG we are in the heart of the Blizzard of 2010. I have seen alot of snow growing up in WI but it is the most I have seen as an adult. So now we wait till monday and we find out how our 6 are doing.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

35 hours and counting.....



So I had 18 eggs this morning and they "found" 2 more on my left side so what did have 5 now has 7... WOW I think little miss lefty has a few more I hope she is hiding behind my "beautiful" uterus! I only say this as I have been told this with the last 3 US by 3 different dr's so it gives me hope that this beautiful uterus will want to carry a child! I am not sure what makes one more beautiful then another on a black and white ultra sound screen. Well husband gave me HCG at 9:30pm on the nose so Friday will be the big morning.

I had a really sweet dr( I wish I knew her name) she gave me 3 US at different times threw out the last few days and she printed a pictures of Mr. Right Ovary.


This is my Right ovary on DRUGS any questions!
If you go to my Cycle Day 12 when I was on clomid and Follistim you will see what Mr. Righty looked like then... BIG differance!
Time for bed... Blood work at 630am!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Our Love story

Well NYC Girl asked me: How did you and your hubby meet? How long were you dating before he proposed & how did he do it? She is also a sucker for love stories.

Because it is late I will give you the short verison..

We met online. My friend Melissa saw his AOL personal add and told me he was a hottie and I should write to him... So I did! That was June 13th 2000! Well after months of emails, chats, and phone calls I flew to Shreveport, LA to meet him. That was October 13th, 2000. We lived this long distance relationship till I moved to Louisiana August 15th, 2001.

Him being military he was deployed right after 9/11/01 and then again in the begining of 2003 so we did alot of being long distance. So we finally got a year of being together and on May 1st, 2004 My 23rd birthdy he in front of our close friends asked me to marry him!

We got married on November 13th of 2004 in front of our friends and family.
I will post a picture later! Sorry this is short 5am is going to come quickly!