Saturday, October 31, 2009

Happy Halloween!

























Well I hope you all had a great Halloween. I have always loved Trick or Treating. Well i do love candy LOL. It is just so much fun the memories or being a kid again. So this year I went Trick or Treating with my friend Amanda and her 3 Little ones. Mr Buzz and Little Miss Piggy were so cute. As you can see I ended up with her oldest Star Wars Helmet on my head as he didn't want to wear it. I think I look pretty cool. Plus my shirt glowed in the dark SSSSSSSccccccccaaaaaarrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy....
What you don't see in this picture is us SWEATING to death. Halloween in Florida was 83 degrees at 7pm when we started and a very high humidity. When we stopped at a little after 8 it was still 80 so it really made it a lot less fun then if there would have been a chill in the air.
I also committed a big Halloween Etiquette NO-NO by not remembering to turn my porch light on at my house as I don't live in the same subdivision as Amanda. We ALWAYS leave it on because I feel safer if it is always on insted of just turning it on when we are home. So sorry to all my trick or treaters that came to my door and i didn't answer with candy because I was not here.
I have always had such a love for trick or treating that on my 17th birthday in MAY my friends and i went trick or treating in my neighborhood. Yes Teenage girls dressed up and acting silly. Then again I was raised in a town of 1000+ people and I was related to half the town and the rest of the girls were related to the rest. LOL I remember getting chocolate chips and coins.... Nothing really good but it was still a fun time. I had a prom dress on! Well I hope you had a great weekend too.

New to mobile blogging so wanted to see if it worked.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Alison

So I wasn't going to blog tonight but my friend Alison after a little coxing decided to start her own blog. She is a military wife like myself and has the cutest little boy Jack. I met her 7 years ago in Cosmetology school ( I was actually going for skin care) we became friends instantly! So here is her blog please go check it out! I can't wait for her stories about jack and her life it is never boring!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I'm Back



Well I didn't really go anywhere I just haven't been in a blogging mood the past few days. Nothing exciting going on. I told my Dr. S about us trying to get in to the Walter Reed IVF program in January since we can't really afford a full IVF right now. He was very supportive and said he would write a letter explaining the failed mini IVF to help us.
I am not a big drinker but I do like wine or a cocktail every once in a while. Since we wont be trying till Jan I picked up a 6pk of the new Bacardi Sangria's they are pretty good. One will be good enough to get me feeling warm and happy.. LOL
Sorry i don't have more to blog about. Have a great evening.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Tomorrow

We see Dr S tomorrow to tell him what we decided to do. Not easy to tell your dr we cant afford him. I'll let you know how it goes.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Home

7 and 1/2 hours in the car and 3 states later we are home! I will miss Bobby , Kendra, and John so much as they will be moving overseas in January... :(

Saturday, October 24, 2009

mckgiveaways


So Mckmama is have one of her many give aways and she got this amazing new fridge by reviewing it for Samsung. She is such an amazing blogger. It also helps having such an interesting life.
Anyways please go check out her blog by clicking on the picture of her fridge and reading about her giveaway for a $200 best buy gift card.

Friday, October 23, 2009

32 days of blogging

So the 21st was actually 30 days of blogging. WOW I did it I took the time and wrote every day. Even on the hard days which I know really helped to have all of your support. Friends are always strangers before they become your friends. Being busy here in SC I will probally just give a low down of the weekend on Sunday night or Monday morning which ever I have more energy for. Unless some great story happens that I have to tell ya'll. Have a wonderful weekend yourselves and hopefully enjoy some fall weather!

Visiting Bobby













So we got in to SC today and I was able to be with Kendra and Bobby from 9 till 1am when he finally fell asleep. His sleep clock is flip flopped and you can tell he gets so bothered with the other monitors in the PICU beeping. I brought him some cars and a sticker book things to keep a 2yr old busy but not too busy!
This is me and Goldie riding in the car. They are such great road dogs!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Hello AF nice to see you again... NOT

AF you love to show up at the most opportune time. How about in the middle of our 5 hour road trip? I was expecting you and hoping you would stay away. You know that little bit of hope that we might get pregnant on our own you shot that down. So now I go visit my friends son in the hospital and you will come with and bring your friends cramps and headaches. Thanks AF you will make my first trip to Charleston extra special I hope you enjoy yourself too.


ICLW




It was a travel filled day 5 hours up I-75.... So I am going for somthing simple with my blog it's get to know me via google images! This came from my blogger buddy Suzy so I am totally using it today! Here's how it works. If you decide to do this, you have to mention the blog where you saw it then use Google Images to explain your answers for each category listed below.

Enjoy!



1. Your favorite beverage: Diet Dr. Pepper. I could live off of it and drink it morning, noon, and night (and sometimes I do)!





2. Your hometown: Grantsburg, WI
Yes here they actually in the summer take snowmobiles and race them across water it is a 3 day weekend!


3. Your favorite television show: The Bing Bang Theory



4. Your occupation: Being Mrs. Smith



5. Your first car: 1983 Oldsmobile Omega and I got this car in 1997 mine was gray!


6. Your favorite dish: Turkey and cheese sandwich I can eat these every day... with chips LOL

7. Celebrity you've been told you most resemble: I was once told Lindsay Lohan I guess 100lbs less and in the right light!



8. Celebrity "crush": Taye Diggs has been looking fine in Private Practice


9. Your favorite childhood toy: I loved my cabbage patch infant mine had brown eyes and I still have it!

10. Any random photo: My Meadow sleeping on my blanket on the couch.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Laundry, Cleaning, Packing

2 loads of laundry, car washed and vacuumed, kitchen cleaned, and packed.
Oh and a great dinner cooked by Denny's LOL.
That was my day.
I'll keep you up to date with my trip.
Hopefully some beautiful pictures too.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Not Me Monday


Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.



It's not me that still has laundry on the love seat from last week.

It's not me that forgot how to dress for cool weather and wore flip flops with a long sleeved top and pants.

It's wasn't me that set the house alarm off twice( or 3 times) this week to let the dogs out in the morning oh and once more when I accidently pushed the alarm key chain.

It wasn't me who packed enough clothes for a month when I thought I might have to go up north after my dad had a heart attack.

It is definitely not me who still hasn't unpacked those clothes that I packed on Thursday. What is it with me and clothes? LOL

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Sunday Chili Sunday


Well it was chilly for Florida and I made Chili so I that is my Sunday in a nutshell. Oh I also watched football all day! Go Packers (
and Brett Farve LOL) ! He is a crazy old man still great at playing football. Oh and he is the QB of my Fantasy Football Team! It got to a balmy 68 today. I love Fall! I have high hopes not to see 90 until June. But then again I live in Florida so 90 might be here tomorrow.
My BFF's son is having open heart surgery on Wednesday because of Atrial Septal Defect. He is 26 months old and such an amazing little boy who has no idea he has a broken heart that needs to be fixed so that he can really be perfect. I can not imagine the worry she is feeling. I know I will be worrying and praying for them till I can see them on Thursday. I was there for almost every Tuesday for the first year of his life so the last 13 months, and only seeing him once, has been hard. He has a very special place in my heart!


FYI: DH and I have decided we are going to wait until after the the first of the year to try IVF. The next few months are full of holidays and stuff. LOL So I believe a little bit more time will be the best. We will start with a fresh year and a fresh out look on our life.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Pumpkins Everywhere


























So I don't have a lot to say but I had a wonderful day with pumpkins. I ended up going to a pumpkin patch with my friend and her 3 littles.
I got myself one and came home and carved it. I do love Halloween.
The ones at home were taken by DH the ones at the patch was taken by my friend. She is such a professional I always love her pictures!

































Friday, October 16, 2009

Morning Thunderstorms

It was nice and not nice to wake up to all the thunder this morning. We haven't had real rain in a few weeks but this decided to start at 5am. My Goldie does not like thunder at all. She has always barked at it so it always wakes us up. There is no stopping the barking so most times we just put her in her cage so we can finish sleeping. She gets so worked up we even had her on some anti anxiety meds if we knew there was going to be a Louisiana TS. So I know it is boring to just talk about rain and how Florida is finally get some cooler weather but it is exciting as it has been 90 constantly since June.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

So glad he's ok!

So my dad ended up having a stint put in but only one so it wasn't major. He is still in the hospital. They still think he might have an infection in the sac around his heart so they will run the test for that tomorrow. He probably wont go home till Saturday. The hardest part is finding out if he will need me to come help for a few weeks after. Him and my mom are so stubborn so to ask for help is the last thing they would do, but I made sure to put it out there. I am not working and as hard as it would be for my DH he would be ok!
We were able to take a nice walk tonight. It still feels like Aug outside but it is getting cooler. It was 80 degrees. We could only take Meadow for the walk with us I don't want to strain Goldie yet. She is still slightly whining when she get under the coffee table and jumps on the bed. Two of her favorite things to do so there is no way to stop her but her whining makes me cringe. Well it is time for a deserved bath tonight.

A worry filled morning

Well my mom called me this morning to let me know my Step-dad had a heart attack he is such a wonderful dad. I hate being so far away from Wisconsin. I don't think we will ever live in Wisconsin I have become such a southern girl to deal with that much winter but I don't like being so far away. My mom doesn't want me to rush home as he is ok but I just hate not being there. So I stay here in Florida and wait and worry and know I can get on a 6pm flight if I need to!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I'm Kreative



This is my first Blog AWARD! Thank you so much Suzy this really made my day!

The rules:
  1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
  2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
  3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
  4. Name 7 things about yourself that people may not know.
  5. Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.
  6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
  7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they’ve been nominated.
My 7 things:
  1. Yesterday I met my husband in person for the first time 9 years ago. We met on the internet 4 months before that.
  2. I was born in Australia and have dual citizenship.
  3. I actually miss living in Louisiana 7 years of living there it became home.
  4. My mother in law is Sarah also.
  5. I am seriously addicted to Facebook.
  6. I have one thumb smaller then the other one.
  7. I never make my bed. I had to do it for 2 months to sell our home but since then the pretty bedding just sits in my closet.
Now here are the 7 ladies i'm passing this on to:

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Tuesday

I couldn't think of any special title for today since it was another day that is life. I went to the commissary at 10am this morning as I do every 2 weeks. I did go with my friend and her 3 littles and we went and saw Toy Story 1 & 2 in 3-D . It is never a bad movie but it was a little bit of a long time with the glasses. I think if I was used to wearing glasses it might have been easier but instead it was a small headache. Then this evening it was organizing the groceries. So my day was as you can tell was just a good Tuesday. I hope you had a good Tuesday as well!

Oh P.S. I got these Voodoo Gumbo chips from Zapp's which I know it not a health food but just reminds me of Louisiana. Try them if your looking for a unique flavor crunchy chip!

Monday, October 12, 2009

My Poor Sore Puppy

I just feel so bad that I can do nothing more to help my dog Goldie. Being that we don't have kids our dogs are our babies. Goldie was the first dog my DH ever had. So it is very hard on him to see her in pain. She is only 6 years. So we will keep up with her meds and hope over the next few day she will start feeling better. I had a wonderful friend recommend glucosamine so i will pick some of that up today. Anything to make my baby feel better!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Lazy Sunday

So today was enjoyable. I watched football baked a Pineapple Up-Side Down cake and a Sprite Pound cake for my DH (which I under baked). That is his favorite. Now for some chicken on the grill since it was 92 degrees here today and some more football tonight.

Well I had gotten what you had just read written when my husband noticed our Goldie had been whining tonight. Especially when she was going to lay down. So we realized her hip was really sore and decided to take her to the Vet ER. Well she has Hip Dysplasia. They aren't sure if it is over time or she injured it today but she got a cortisone shot and a some pain killers. We will be taking her back in next week to have it rechecked. So our lazy Sunday turned in to an worry some Sunday!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Old Me

I was looking threw some old pictures last night and came across some pictures of us at Christmas of '06. This was me at my heaviest. I even had to ask for an extender belt in the airplane. I was just under 300 LBS in this picture and now I am 60lbs less. I can't believe how far I have come and how far I still have to go. I hasn't been a fast loss but most of it since Jan 40lbs of it. Just thought I would show you a little of the old me.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Friday Five

It's friday and that means it's time for friday five! To participate add your answers to these questions on your blog.

what was the last thing you baked?
Peanut butter cookies. I actually made both PB dough and CC dough but the CC never got baked LOL


what was the last thing you tried on for size?

A pair of Brown BORN sandals. I actually bought them.

what was the last thing you purchased on your credit card?

Clothes from caters for my Step-brothers new daughter.


what was the last thing you put a postage stamp on?

A bill but it was a long time ago.

what was the last thing you took a photo of?

My work out room

I got this from http://notafertilemyrtle.blogspot.com/2009/10/friday-five_09.html anything to keep my blog a little more interesting!

The Giver

Well TGIF, this week has been a big roller coaster of emotions and I am not sure if i feel like the roller coaster is over yet. I have been trying to put myself first over the last few days and that is hard for me. I am a pleaser.. woo i said it! LOL I tend to put peoples feelings and needs over my own and in my life I have gone to the extreme of doing this and have gotten heartbroken by friends because of it too. It was reviled to me about a year ago that I need to not feel bad if I only give 50% to a relationship, whatever that relationship maybe. That if people really care about you they will come that other 50% to make a realtionship whole. I always have been ok with give 75% and loving the feeling of "Wow what I just did really meant a lot to that person and some day they will do the same for me". Well it doesn't tend to happen that way. So many people are takers they have no feeling (or if they do it is a little) of "I hope I can do the same for that person some day". When their giver or pleaser is gone or no longer giving or pleasing they just find a new one and this ends up leaving the giver crushed.
I do not know how to stop being this person. I have tried really tried and it seems when I become not enough of a giver when I back up to my 50% so many people seem to fail me with coming that other 50% of the way. And then they get mad at me and I become a little more broken.
So what do I do when I want put myself first and take time for myself and don't want to be a giver for a day, a week, or a month. How can I do this without making people upset at me? Then I feel the need to give again to not have them mad at me.
I am not really looking for answers I am just feeling the need to put how I am feeling out there. I am not even sure if this all makes sense. I has just been an emotional week and this will pass too.

Oh BTW we have decided we will go with a Traditional IVF we just are not sure when we will start it.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Sprinklers and TV

Such a simple wonderful thing built in sprinklers are. Well at 5am when they go off and drive my dog bonkers so she barks and barks and barks because in her mind she is protecting us they are not so wonderful. The new home we live in has this system that confuses the crap out of me so we haven't set it for a new time I wish we could just not water the lawn with this system but the home owner requests that we do it twice a week. So I guess I will try to program the system I can not take the barking any more, 5am is not my favorite time of the day!

I am a total TV junkie! I love to watch so many different shows that sometimes I have to watch them on the internet because my DVR can only record 2 at a time. Thursday night has to rank as the highest night for TV right now. My #1 show of the week is GLEE. I have watched every episode so far twice I love the singing and the jokes it is my happy pill! If your reading this I would love to know you not miss show of the week.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

My Goal


I made a goal for myself and a promise to you that I would blog every day for 30 days. And even though my life right now is not where I expected to be I need to complete my goal.
Well today my friend got new bedroom furniture and so she needed some where for her treadmill to be and where she could still use it. So here it is in our den. We already had the bike and the bench so it was fitting to have the treadmill also. Hopefully we will really stick to working out everyday. It is time to stop the excuses and get working more on my health and wellness.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Still Emotional

Well the Dr offiice called this morning and we need to make a decision soon. To try another Mini IVF and hope the drugs work this time? Or go with a traditional IVF and spend about $6000 more dollars on more shots and more hormones? Or wait a month and then decide. How do i decide this? Many people in my life would say pray about it. That is what i have been doing for such a long time and i feel like I am getting no answers. I had SO much confidence in the MINI IVF that I didn't think we would be having to make this decision or another decision. DH only want is to do what I feel is best and to have OUR baby. That doesn't make this easier and I don't want another day of tears but I can't stop thinking about it all. I am ready to flip a coin or go to the magic 8 ball I got DH last year for Christmas.
I just feel so sad and so lost.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Our Battle

11/13/2004 DH and I got married! One of the happiest days of my life. I love this man so much.
5/1/2006 We decided to start TTC on my 25 Birthday.
11/27/2006 Was last cycle because of Silent thyroiditis I wont be diganosed till January but wont have AF till September.
09/2007 My cycles start again and we start with ovulation kits.
01/27/2008 HSG and full blood panel
02/13/2008 Meet with OB/GYN tubes open and blood work normal. Discover DH SA Low Count High FSH.
04/01/2008 IUI#1 150 Clomid SC- 1.9mil BFN
05/03/2008 IUI#2 150 Clomid SC- 3.2mil BFN
06/03/2008 IUI#3 150 Clomid SC- 2.2mil BFN
07/07/2008 IUI#4 150 Clomid / DH b12, Folic acid, and Zinc SC- 5.3mil BFN
08/08/2008 RE in Louisiana recommended IVF but we got Military Orders to Tampa
09/19/2008 Moved to Tampa, FL
01/22/2009 Have LapBand to lose weight
08/04/2009 Lost 35lbs Meet with RE Dr. S
08/2009 Was to rushed to start Mini IVF this cycle have to wait till Sept.
09/21/2009 Cycle day #1 of Mini IVF lots of hope
10/05/2009 Not responding too drugs canceled mini IVF

This is our 3 year battle. It has been full of a lot of ups and downs. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful caring husband. This is truly our battle for how much love we have in our hearts for a child.

Not Me Monday


It's not me who made chocolate chip cookie dough just to eat it and not to make cookies.

It's not me who spoke BAD Spanish when answering the phone to not talk to a telemarketer.

It's not me who gave myself 13 shots in the belly since last Monday.

It's not me who still hasn't put my dry groceries away that I bought on Saturday.

It's not me who started this blog just because my friends blog seemed so cool and found that I have a lot to talk about.

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

And then there was ONE....

So this morning is not a good morning. After kicking up all my drug doses this weekend we only have 1 large follicle the rest just decided not to grow. So I am very sad this morning. I had such hope this cycle, and now it is pretty much over. I have wanted this baby so much so I cry with the thought another month is gone. My biggest concern now is not trying it again next month but is that the due date next month would be around the first of Aug. Well DH deploys for 6 months in Aug 2010. Why do I have such high hopes for having this baby and so many things just seem to not be right? So today I am sad for my one follicle that will never be more then that.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Cycle Day 14

OMG my ovaries must just be busting at the seem, they hurt today. Otherwise it has been an uneventful day. Another football Sunday, can't beat it! I will know so much more tomorrow morning! Another 715am appointment.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Cycle Day 13

Well the Dr called yesterday and said I wont be going back in till Monday. Today is grocery shopping and steaks on the grill for dinner. I have become a coupon freak so I hope to save a lot of money today! Well I upped my meds to 225IU I feel ok. I just hate the shot I give myself in the morning I always have a headache. Have a wonderful Saturday I know I will!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Cycle Day 12















This is my ovary on drugs any questions...


This is a picture of my right ovary I have 2 follies at 13mm and 2 follies at 11mm. I have 2 follies on my left side one 11mm and one at 8mm. I have been praying for 6 eggs all week. I know that is kind of silly but for some reason 6 has been in my head since they told us about this. He also said my lining is at 5.2mm which is over the 5mm they like to see and I have a good 3 layers of sticky (uterine lining). That is certainly not the medical term but in the IVF world we all know the sticky is so important. Well they also upped my meds from 150IU to 225IU. We will see how this makes me feel tonight. My next US is a 9am Sunday. What a great Sunday morning. I think I am going to nap and let these follies keep growing.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Cycle Day 11

Oh my today was full of needles, I gave myself my morning shot which was normal but this afternoon DH and I decided to get acupuncture. Well maybe I decided and he went along to please me. I have read a lot of positive things about doing the acupuncture with IVF. I figure it couldn't hurt maybe help a little. I am going to go back within 24hrs after implantation to help them stick LOL. I just hope this gives us something positive. I would like to see DH count around 3-5 million so we wont have to have the ICSI done. So then spending $120 will actually save us $900. Either way a little positive thinking can't hurt either. I had 20 needles placed. 2 in each ear, 1 in between my eyes, 1 in each hand, 1 in each elbow crook, 3 in my belly, 3 in my lower leg, and 1 on the top of each foot! DH had 15 needles. He didn't seem to affected by it. A few years ago this wouldn't be even an option in DH eyes. Not really the Eastern medicine believer. Now I think he is willing to try almost anything to achieve a baby. Well tomorrow morning we have another US to let us know how these follies have progressed! Hopefully we will know when I will have to give myself the HCG shot to trigger the release for the extraction. Oh and also maybe have a picture or two of my follies!